It is really hard to say goodbye. Goodbyes are the toughest part of any journey. It feels like yesterday, that I entered my college, with all the energy and desire to do something big!
I met a girl, who later became my roommate and she was the first friend I had made in the college. Living alone, in a hostel was going to be an entirely new experience for me….and for someone who never dared to do it, it was a hell! I was scared, excited, anxious, worried and most importantly I was breaking apart inside, as my father was to fly back to Hyderabad, the very next day. I was numb. I didn’t want to stay. I wanted to go back with him.
I cried, I shouted, I was not ready to stay in that hostel room, which looked like a dark well in spite of all the light. I was not happy.
But, slowly and steadily, I began unpacking my stuff. I started talking to my neighbor, we went together for dinner, met many other girls, sat on the swing and talked for several hours together. I used to call mom every single hour, and every time both of us controlled our tears just so that the other person doesn’t feel bad.
The next day was the first day of college. A whole new classroom full of energetic and pretty faces. Lecture by lecture, professors came in, we introduced ourselves. From the beginning, we used three girls, always together and always over-energetic.
Days passed. Many exciting things happened, learnt so many things and made so many memories. I wish to share all those, as separate chapters of my life, because those memories and experiences are very precious for me and I have learnt a lot from them. I made a friend, apart from my hostel friends. And ever since then, he has been a source of constant support, love and enthusiasm. We became best friends and I thank God for such a beautiful relationship.
I then started my journey as a learner. Classrooms, competitions and seminars, whatever came my way, I participated with full grace. And guess what, my companion was my best friend Daman. That calm and introvert guy is today, the STAR of the college. And I am really happy for him! We continued to break our own records, with each morning, came a new hope and a new challenge as well. In this process of molding, I found an amazing guide and also a friend, he was an exemplary man with a ton of experience and logic in life. He recognized the caliber in us and since then, we started a new journey, exciting but challenging. I have learnt a lot from him and he is going to be a crucial part of every chapter of my life. My professors deserve no less a place in my life.
In this journey, I found my brothers and best friends, 3 of them were with us for the longest time. I could not expect anything more from my life. They have loved me unconditionally and have been a constant source of motivation for me. A thousand memories and thousands of conversations.
It is already 2 years and 5 months, my college, my friends, the hostel room and the entire journey as a learner was an experience worth a million words. Things changed, the friends, with whom my journey started, left and got back again. Several people entered and left from my life, giving several more beautiful memories along with some lessons! But I thank them all for their wonderful presence in my life. My big brothers are already gone for their training. Exams came to an end. Semester came to an end. And we were to part today, for our winter vacation.
And, it is unbelievable, but the college in which we entered “crying” years ago, leaving that college and that hostel seems like a disaster. I feel a vibe of terror and grief, while I locked my hostel room and left my college. That is how life turns tables. At once, our college life seems hard and terrible, and the other moment, even the thought of leaving it and millions of memories related with every corner of the college and hostel, feels so tough and disgracing.
As I walked out from the college, something was pulling me back. While I knew it wasn’t a permanent departure, but still I mixed feeling. Happiness of returning to home, with my family and restlessness of leaving my room, and my routine behind. It is very beautiful to see how we connect to the environment and our routines.
This added to my experiences. And it was magical. I realized how, in time, we grow and learn the worth of all the things and turns in life. There was a time when I couldn’t imagine living in a hostel with a roommate and today, I live in the same hostel, by myself and I am strong enough to take responsibility of myself as well as others.
Once a not so-confident girl, but I can encourage and motivate people. I can handle and manage various parts of my life and not let one part interfere with the other. Be patient and enjoy life. It will teach you everything, but only when the right time to learn comes! And praise all that Almighty gives. What seems to be a misfortune at one time, may turn out to be the best decision and the best turn of your life. Just keep calm, breathe out, smile a little more, be more kind and helpful, love everyone, sacrifice for others too, be positive and the world will be all yours!
With this small glimpse of my life, I just wanted all of us to realise that – GIVE SOME TIME, YOUR LIFE WILL BE THE BEST, MORE THAN YOU ACTUALLY DREAM. If we didn’t collect experiences and learn some things, then there is no point of calling it a life! Be lively and love everyone a little more! Express yourself enough, to show everyone some respect and love! Chase your dreams and slow down for some time for yourself. Do not lose yourself only in the professional life. Take some time out, make some memories and live life a little more. Just steal a few moments and cherish them for a lifetime!
Keep some part of yourself, a mystery (worth solving), it is always good to have something interesting and something new, just like a question paper of B-Tech! (I hope this sense of humor convinced you to smile!)
Till the next time,
Stay healthy, happy and kind!